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the last time i made a blog,i thought that it was the end…(well,kind of..hehe)…

in the passing of time,i have been thinking of finally letting go..coz they told me that i have to move on…though moving on and forgetting him is quite a very hard job to do…i fought for him…but the fact that he was the one telling me to forget about him,now that really pisses me off and hurt me a lot…(emotional pa rin?!hehe)…after months of thinking,i decided na di ko na xa kukulitin…(naging makulit kasi ako eh)…i thought that i give myself a chance to heal…to love myself again before continuing on loving him…and it’s right naman diba?na you have to love yourself first before loving someone else…

and i thank God kasi even in my lowest,He’s always there…giving me strength to face each day…i thank Him coz He has not given me up event though there were times that i felt like giving up…i thank God also coz we remained friends after what had happened between us…

i know he still loves me…and i also love him…

when i was about to let him go,he came to me…telling me that he wanted to give us another chance…imagune that?!hehehe…buti na lang he came to his senses…hehehe…

and now na kami na ulit,i’m happy to be given a chance to make this one work…coz i don’t want to experience the torture and hurt and loneliness that i felt those past few months…and nakakapagod din ang umiyak ng umiyak…

the previous blog i have made was not an ending pala…i was not meant to let him go pala…it was just a temporary goodbye…why i said that?because in letting go of a person,it meant that you might not have him back…he might not come back for you,if he’s not meant for you…but in goodbye,there will always be another hello,right?!you just needed time away from each other…pra naman mamiss nyo ang isa’t isa diba?o diba bongga?hehehe

they say that every story has its own ending… minsan no matter how great the story is, still nkakadisappoint coz dumadating p rin tau dun s ending nung story… now im thinking if ung story ko, ay dumating n s ending nya… i dont know if its really the end o di kya ay nsa pause n stage lang… pro i cant deny the truth n meron dn akong kasalanan bkt nangyari un… well what can i say, nagkakamali dn ako… pro that’s not realy an excuse dibah?!

for the past years n kasama ko xa, i’ve experienced a lot of things… minsan naiinis ako, nfufrustrate, ndidisappoint, ngagalit, nagtatampo… and many more… and ung pnakamaganda eh msaya ako pag kasama ko xa… and everytime we’re together i felt secured kahit p magulo ung paligid… we really had a great time… and i didn’t know n ang magandang samahang iyon, masisira lang, matatapos… nakakapanghinayang… masakit s damdamin… mahirap tanggapin…

di ko alam kung mgiging tulad p rin b ako ng dati without him s buhay ko… di ko alam kung makakamove on agad ako… kc for the past years he has become my life… char!!! drama maxado noh?!hehehe… pro honestly, totoo ung cnabi ko… hopefully di p tlga to ung end… im still hoping n nkapause lng tong story ko… hanggang dito n lng muna tong post ko… coz naiiyak n nmn ako eh… fresh n fresh p rin kc mxado…ang sakit sakit p…

naks! tgal din akong di nakapost ah..hehe..

been very very busy lang tlga..

hmmmm..the last tym i posted sumthing was about the feeling being neglected or something like that..hehehe..

pro this time,naiinis ako! as in…naiinis ako s isang tao…kc di xa maailis alis sa life ng isang taong isa s pinakaimportante s buhay ko..kung pued nga lng sabihan ung girl n wag n xa mgcge text eh,ginawa ko n..pro unfortunately, di ko pla kya..kc alam kong pg ginawa ko un, ako n nmn ang mali and pagaglitan n nmn ako..kc nga,mgbest friend cla..msakit n ngang isipin n di ako ang best friend tlga ng taong pinakaimportante s ‘kin, sinabihan p akong kya ganun kc  mas mtgal daw clang ngkakilala nung girl kesa s amin n bago2 lng…tma b yn?!grrrrrrrr…

kakainis kc ala akong magawa…

life sucks tlga oo…

There are times when i look in your eyes
i see the love that we shared
i see the joy inside
but i didn’t see the feelings you hide
and now you’re saying goodbye
because your love has died

And all i can think about is you
the way you say you love me too
and everytime i close my eyes i see your face
my love can never be erased
and you can never be replaced…baby

baby girl
why don’t you come back to me
why don’t you love me anymore
baby girl
you know i still care for you
you know i will love you forevermore…(2x)

There are times
when i kiss you goodnight
I feel the love that we shared
I feel the joy inside
but I didn’t feel what you tried to hide
and now you’re saying goodbye
because your feeling has died

And all i can think about is you
the way you say you love me too
and everytime i close my eyes i see your face
my love can never be erased
and you can never be replaced…baby

baby girl
why don’t you come back to me
why don’t you love me anymore
baby girl
you know i still care for you
you know i will love you forevermore…(2x)

And all i can think about is you
the way you say you love me too
and everytime i close my eyes i see your face
my love can never be erased
and you can never be replaced…baby

–hurts to know na ang mahal mo doesnt love you anymore…tama bang maging senti s first blog?!hehehe… i guess i can’t help it.. kasi naman, i’ve been feeling kinda down lately eh.. and i realized na totoo pala ung saying na “people will adore you for the hundres of good things you’ve done for them…but will hate you for a single mistake you’ll make”… tama naman diba?! and no matter how sorry you felt, kahit ilang beses ka nang humingi ng tawad, parang ala na ring halaga… kasi nasira mo n tiwala nila sayo.. and halos everytime na magkasama kau, pinaparamdam sayo na parang ala ka nang halaga ( i mean nabawasan na ang love sayo because of what you have done )… and kahit anong gawin mo para bumawi, kahit you’ve given na your best, parang may kulang pa rin… it’s as if lahat nang gagawin mo, puro mali… and kelangan mong tiisin lahat nang parusang ibibigay sayo… may kasalanan ka eh… pero paminsan-minsan, nakakapagod na rin… haaaaaaay… hindi ba puedeng patawarin n lang?! can’t they see bah na you truly are regretting the horrible thing that you have done?! as i have said kanina, nakakapagod n kasi eh… and ang sakit2 na…

sana naman patawarin na me… i dont want to give up you know… pro pagod na ako…

haaaaay..so much for this na nga..mas lalo tuloy akong nadedepress… hopefully, next time i write here, masaya na yung topic….